16 Ramadhan 1429 September 16, 2008

Which means another 14 days approaching Eidul Fitri

10 days before my brother fly to L0nd0n…ICL to be exact.

Most probably my family will come to KL -against the wave of  ‘balik kampung’ troupe. Only later we’ll go back to hometown. Can’t really confirm on this…as usual my dad can be anything that he wants to be. I wish this year he’ll have some consideration of berhari raya at our house instead of another ‘kampung’.

I plan (me and hby) to have pre raya just for my brother. Berbuka puasa with the raya food,such as rendang,nasi minyak (our must be delicacy) and some kuih raya. I hope our big family can attend the gathering.

I plan to get my brother some present too. He’s excellency should be rewarded, but I can’t figure out yet….can’t afford for lavish present , due to tight budget. (So sad). Initially want to give him a watch, mobile (but UK ’s lines is different-so cancel), or digital camera….or perhaps books. Hmm I think book (motivation and Islamic book) can be a great gift too…and get all of us to sign autograph on it!.

Tomorrow I will attend open sou*rce course at CbJya. (0-es-si-si). Hmm quite blur of what will be the input…it will be for 2 days. Just hope that I can deliver the tasks assign with excellent……

Office as usual…rumours crwaling all over the place, but can’t really tell which one is true or just ‘halwa telinga’. But no matter what u always need to be alert with that *wink*wink*.

Yesterday went for berbuka puasa with old friends. (x-@str0.)….Such a great gathering and enjoy it. JUicy gossips….what happening in the old workplace and our new environment….Trully I miss @stro….I love my job there (compared to now)…but it’s too much. I don’t want to jeopardize my family for that….so sorry my dear @stro, I have to leave u behind. My team has shrinking…and I think in bad shape now….from 5 ppl, one by one resign and now left with none except 2 new ppl. Hmmm user complaints on the information availability and integrity….:(…hmm blame no one except the mgmt…who don’t appreaciate us!

Hmmm my current job? Stay strong and prove to them you’re the best!

Proactive? September 10, 2008

Since the day I started my work here (current place), I had 3 immediate bosses already. Mrs N, Dr S and now Mr Jack. Been through lots of experience and learn on how to handle this bosses too.

Mrs N is a lil bit ‘unsocialize’, prefer to work on her own meaning that seldom discuss it with her ‘anak buah’. Sometime can be kelam kabut and my friend said (perception only ya), the quality of her work is below the expectation of what her level shld do.

Meanwhile Dr S, is professional, thinking ahead and do her work in a very good quality. She always make sure there is always some added value to what she did. And this imply to us too. I really enjoy working with her though sometimes she can be very meticulous and want a perfection. We also need to be ready at all time to answer all the Qs of what we shld do. Which is very similar to what my previous company ( private sector) apply in their workers. Due to that behavior, some of the officers like her and didn’t like her too.Especially those who has been tuned themselves to be a slow, relax,lazy ass bone g*vt serv*nts. I personally feel that I can get along with her, so its seems that Dr also can work well with me, which I think has caused some jealousy to some senior officers. Well, please…aku tak bodeks kay!.I did my work like what my boss want, so please don’t blame me if she like to mention my name, what so eve…..

Mr Jack come to the picture, and looks like my senior officers tried to get his attention. In short he kind of man that act like ‘Joyah’. Kinda metrosxual guys in local society.(Hope u can imagine).He’s manly, got kids, though body but the mouth and the expression hmmm very the ‘Joyah’. Good things about him is, he listen (listen ya…not follow) to everyone and build good rapport with everyone in the office. Which is very synonym with the Joyah character rite? But, like Joys too, u need to be careful with him, cause he can simply tell others of what u have told (share, mengumpat etc) him earlier. Which turn out can be a different perception too other people and make u looks bad too!. Oh dear…I wish I can escape from this situation.

One day, Mr Jack called me and simply said I’m not PROACTiVE…what?I’m so shocked.He kinda blame me because I didn’t know about the changes to the talk that I manage.What the heck? At that time I was away for compulsory courses and after I came back from the courses I did met him and ask of any pending job. No one inform me about the changes! Later he can simply said that I’m no proactive enough and pity my senior need to do lots of works! Hello….please ok! In my heart, I’m so mad of this. They (my seniors too) also happened to do the job without involving me, then when they face any problem or run short of time they come and ask for my help. I don’t mind to help, but please don’t claim that i didn’t play my role as a team members if from the beginning u didn’t invite me!. I’m so pissed off when think about this. Happened that Mr Jack is new..and looks like the Senior have captured his mind to believe what ever they said rather that what our prior boss (dr S) has told him about the scenario before. Do they feel threaten with my existence?..Arghh..because Dr S is comfortable with me they want to stab me back by telling Mr Jack that I’m this and that. Arghh sakit hati…looks like Mr Jack believe them and treat me unlike my seniors…(macam anak tiri aja aku ni) Sedey!

I hope I can prove myself to my boss ! I’m proactive enough and willing to take any challenge!. I don’t understand why ppl can be so mean to each other!Ya Allah..please give the strength and show me the way…insyaAllah!To those who envy me and feel that aku perasan bagus (no I didn’t)..aku maafkan. They can’t blame me if I wanna nurture the good and best behaviour here….make them feel so too!

Happy Ramadhan September 6, 2008

6th Ramadhan 1429

Blessed with Ramadhan.

My brother scheduled to fly to Londo*n on 27th Sept. 3 days before Aidil Fitri. Will become ICL( Imperi*al Colle*ge Lond*on) student. Have some glitched with the offer letter. They seems that have misplaced or some technical issues and haven’t send the offer letter. Alhamdulillah it has been resolved last week (after everyday calls to Lond*on, nagging the registrar office to expediate the process). So now the letter will be departed from Heath*row Airport soon and hopefully by Monday will get to KL. So due to that few process have been postponed eg the vi*sa, the funding and contract with YT. I hope no more glitch after this. Pity my brother….Ya Allah, permudahkan urusan adikku ini. He has been study hard to get the place in ICl, so please don’t let the technical issues holding him back. He got 3As and 1B for A Le*vel.. -Maths,Physics,Computing and B -Further Maths). Alhamdullilah. He even got the best student for Comp*ting Subject during the college graduation ceremony). I hope he can catched up with the studies in ICL later, which give me some kind of worry. I know it is tough university, ranked after Oxf*ord and Cambrid*ge.

The Ramadhan so far , great. Last week was packed with course. Proje*ct Mgmt Course-10 Step by Proje*ct Mgmt Institu*te. Hmm those who work as PM /PMO must know about this. Me and M*l the junior officers have some bored and though time to finish the course. Yaaa…it’s way to high for us to catch up.Theoritically can understand but to share the knowledge, we;re still lack of it. Most of the participants are our bosses…so it’s quite interesting hearing and get to know the true colors of IT industries in Govt Sector. Anyway I value the knowledge that I gain from the course. (heheh and get the bosses to recognose me as well!)

This month also I choose to work from 7.30am till 4.30 pm. Sound early right? But believe me, most people also choose to go to work early. I thought I can easily get to office because I leave early…but everyone else did the same thing too. Aiyooo…back to normal I guess.

Haven’t apply for Raya Leave. Probably 1 1/2 weeks? 2 weddings to get involve and 2 farewell abroad. My brother 3 days before raya and my SIL 4 days after Raya. Good luck both of you!….

—–>I also wish another luck this month…may our project no2 succeed.

From corporate to non August 30, 2008

Thanks for giving us the bonus. Though it will be paid twice (1/2 September and 1/2 December) it’s good enough rather than not have it at all.

At this moment, I remember while I’m still working with large company before, the must-be bonus is 2 months. Then we have performance bonus (depends, 1/2 months to 2 months? or none at all). We do have pay rise too (3%-7%) I think. Yet, those are the old days, they give you large amount of money so they simply can ask more from you. Thinking in a long term manners, I quit because I don’t want to jeopardize my family towards my career.

So having said that, here I am. Less money, but still can be considered good enough and the most important thing is more time for my family. Also I can started to add in the new family members too . The suspended projects while I was working there.

Still not all bad things happened there. I did enjoy being there. With professional working style, conducive environment and very business driven. I learn more on working in style and professional. Become though and learn to accept any critics, madness and even some unlogical reasoning.

So with all that, this current working environment is nothing much-challenge and workload for me. Not to brag myself, far yet to boast but it is what I felt. I just hope I don’t get bored too soon because there is no challenge for me!.

Next year (in 4 months) I hope I’ll get more work and bigger responsibilities!. Please bosses, allow me to sank myself in tonnes of work. (Gilo ko apo?)

The Role of DBA August 21, 2008

Being a trainer, it is my task to ensure the participants are able to achieve the target. Train not just for the sake of finishing the chapters, but to make sure they apply it..(but how can I know?). Well I believe the most important thing is make sure the participant understand and able to portray it back…

For me, as DBA these are some of the important requirement. Don’t call yourself a DBA if the administration part u hardly understand. I’m also not excellent, but I am comfortable with my ability.

Responsibilities:

• This person will play a key role in insuring the database environment is architected to meet business and IT demands for availability, performance and manageability.
• The DBA will be responsible for production databases in support of IT applications.
• Implements standards relative to all aspects of database management
• Provides solutions mapped to business/user and application development needs
• Develops technical and organizational specifications for systems
  • Advise on best data coding practices, review critical SQL explain plans and validate database scripts for launch and assist in production launch.
  • Maintain database documentation
  • Responsible for communication and notification to IT support groups and management of all new database requirements and standards.

Requirements:

• Proficiency in Optimizing Databases/database servers, Backup/Recovery (point-in-time recovery), Security architecture, Standby, Database clusters, I/O sub-system tuning for best performance (data file layout, RAID configuration etc.), various trace flag settings and performance-tuning of database SQL code (procedures/packages etc.)

Interesting Article-Woman & Career August 21, 2008

Wanita bekerjaya tidak teragak-agak sabotaj rakan

SINGAPURA: Satu kajian antarabangsa mendedahkan wanita adalah ‘musuh’ sendiri di tempat kerja kerana didapati tidak akan mempromosi golongan mereka untuk kenaikan pangkat.

Kajian saintis Shannon L Goodson dari Amerika pada 2008 itu adalah sebahagian daripada kandungan buku baru beliau berjudul The Psychology of Sales Call Reluctance yang membuat perbandingan terhadap hampir 11,500 wanita profesional dan 16,700 lelaki dari 34 negara.

Goodson berkata wanita profesional di Britain, Amerika dan China didapati lebih berminat mempromosikan kepentingan mereka, manakala wanita New Zealand, Sweden adalah yang paling kurang berminat terhadap kerjaya, diikuti wanita Australia dan Kanada.

Bagaimanapun secara keseluruhan kata Shannon, ramai wanita tidak melakukan sesuatu yang cukup baik untuk meningkatkan kerjaya masing-masing.

“Wanita tidak mewujudkan siling kaca yang menjadi penghalang yang mengehadkan wanita untuk meningkatkan keupayaan diri mereka, tetapi merekalah yang mengekalkan siling kaca itu,” kata Goodson.

Kajian beliau juga mendapati ramai wanita yang berjaya meningkatkan kerjaya mahu kejayaan itu menjadi milik mereka seorang saja, sebilangannya tidak teragak-agak mensabotaj peluang wanita lain untuk mendapat kenaikan pangkat atau meningkatkan kerjaya mereka.

Beliau berkata, keupayaan untuk membuktikan sumbangan dan kecekapan di tempat kerja adalah ciri penting dalam pengurusan kerjaya era moden dan ini antara perkara yang belum mampu dilakukan kebanyakan wanita berbanding rakan kerja lelaki mereka.

Kajian Goodson mendapati kebanyakan lelaki tidak menghadapi masalah membuktikan sumbangan malah ada yang sanggup berbohong.

Bagaimanapun katanya, ramai wanita masih menganggap usaha mempromosikan diri sendiri sebagai sesuatu yang tidak dapat diterima secara ’sosial’ dan percaya kenaikan pangkat diperoleh hanya dengan kerja kuat.

–Yup..some of it is true…..

Done…and now waiting for the answer August 8, 2008

Finally I managed to finish all the procedures in order to get my confirmation.

This morning went to PKK for the security interview.Such an interesting experience. 1 polic*e interview me and my friend too. Which is not that bad, though I did fill out the form inaccurately. Just that. Compared to my friend, he got scolded kaw-kaw…ermm dunno why. My dear friend (E*na) also plays a good role. Well she’s my friend and know me well pun. So nothing to hide since I’m ‘clean’ too. InsyaAllah….finish the intvw at almost 11.30 am, and we headed to PY*ramid..huhu another mission

The mission is to find the infamous J*Co D*onut. No queue at all! I bought 1 dozen and treat E*ena 1/2 dozen….then we went to Star*B*ucks….me as usual the choc…(apa dah nama die). E*na introduce me to her UT- Under T*A… sounds good and it’s medium risk, so I decided to join….at least the money can grow more compared to conventional saving or normal shares. **Listen to the advise of our Pension Manager…invest invest invest and let the money grow for you!

Done with those discussion, sent E*ena tu Commuter station…sorry friend, actually she prefer the KJ L*RT but, quite far and I still need to do some errands. On my way back, it’s raining heavily, plus I’m so sleepy. Due to coffee? Hmm I dunno….stop at pharmacy and bought the medicine for selsema…(pity my son still not 100% recover). Finally reached home at 2pm…They (Hby, Son & my brother) were so excited when I showed them the J*Co…my son especially…was amazed with the decoration of the donuts!

Then rest and sleep…can’t do laundry since it’s still raining…me dozed off….

This weekend we’ll headed South to attend my cousin’s wedding….unofficially invited..the bride nor the family invited us directly, but just pesan memesan to my father…der…a bit hangin because the bride is working in KL and even the brother of the bride also work here! But none of them make an effort to call me or the sedara what so eve!. Maybe I’m just a plain cousin who meant nothing to them….so ikutkan hati, I’m so malas to attend the wedding….well we’ll see how it goes!

My son still not 100% recover from flu…i guess we need to keep the aircond on all the time…especially nite. last nite we stiched it off because he coughing badly, but then after few hours, the temp risen…aiyarkk… so we quickly gave him PCM and turn the aircond back…and this morning before I go to work…he seems okay…sleeping peacefully…no cough and the temperature is back to normal.

and the best part is, he called himself abang **** (his name)…aiyarkk which give others a questionable looks..am i pregnant? Hmm not yet…but soon insya allah and I can see that my son really want adik so soon…!

I need a break August 5, 2008

It’s been a busy duper busy weeks for me. Starting from 16 July until yesterday (4th August)

Week 1

My induction course started.  Attend classes from morning till evening 5 days a week. The course coordinator have passed us the assignment to do. We have group assignment (6 questions) and individual assignment (8 questions). Well since we’re still in week 1 +plus 3 days classes from previous week, I haven’t started doing it yet. We went to class (I left home 6.30am everyday)…but back at home 6pm paling lambat pun. So it’s still okay from me.  We played bowling and futsal and have lots of fun although the classes were packed. Not to mention we build relationship…some P.P.T and P.T*M too.

Week 2

Is our final week..,,we have exam on Thursday and need to submit the assignment. Lucky our group was very committed, so we managed to complete everything on Tuesday, and I went back to office to print, bind and make photocopy for every members. Fuhhh lega satu kerja. My individual assignment also have completed. I allocate my weekend to settle the assignment…and ready to bind it too. Alhamdulillah. Now it’s time to study. This induction examination is very tough and important. The worst part is, it’s cover everything about the civil service. Aduihh mak aii. P*erintah A*m, Pe*keli*ling (P*KPA), Ara*han K*eselamatan, Da*sar-D*asar Ne*gara, Mala*ysia  dan macam macam lagilah. I read every books and the most important things is So*alam R*amalan tu!. Thx to my officemate who lend me the notes!.

Still the day before exam, we have small feast…nak tak nak we have to attend it lah kan. During that week, it’s really hectic and tiring….went to class from 6.30 am…until 6pm…Night need to settle down the house chores…and curik curik masa to study. Normally I slept just 3 to 4 hours..just to study, understand and memorize all those facts and figures. Sungguh penat. But I think alhamdullilah I still can answer it. What I read come out in exam so bolehlah jawab. But then just after the exam, we straight went for another course. and this the the last and though one!

Week 3

From the induction course, we went to B*TN course in Me*ru. Alhamdullilah not that far…still in Selan*gor. Since I’ve been in BT*N before…I have set my mind and ready for any challenge ahead. We reached Me*ru around 4pm, and quickly register ourselves. Me, Y*an and Z*ulf*a in the same dorm, plus M*az, I*zan, Z*ura and Y*amu*na. Together with us are U*G4*1 group (civil servants knowlah). Well from that moment the though life started….for 5 days.

(Day 1)

Just briefing and election of P*enghulu…we picked the same P*enghulu as induction

(Day 2)

4.45am-wake up, bath and subuh prayer at musolla

6.45am-Kuliah subuh at hall

7.15am-Marching and exercising

7.30am- Breakfast

8.15am- Lecture at hall -break at 10.30am for brunch then continue the lecture

1pm-Lunch and Zuhur Prayer

2pm- Lecture again

5.15pm- Exercise and marching (we did fitness test)

7.15pm- Dinner

7.30pm-Maghrib prayer and kuliah maghrib

8.15pm-Lecture again…..

11.30- Supper

12.30- baru boleh tido (paling awal lee)

Well that’s how it goes…cuma the exercise tu differs…We did flying fox, repelling, run for 2 kilometers under 24minutes (penat tau turun naik bukit curam).Fuhh..but syukur because I am able to finish it. Apart from lecture we also have LD*K..and discuss lots of things….plus simple group presentation (so fun)..and watched some ‘argument’ here and there. It’s tiring…and tense (because handphone not allowed)…and we also do not know what is happening outside there…no tv and paper…apa lagi internet!

We have exam plak tu…and need to pass it. Hmmm they did provide the books….punyalah kami study, but tak masuk pun exam…hampesh…so berbekalkan pegetahuan am aku and bekas bekas hafalan semasa induksi tu…dapatlah jugak jawabnye…….After exam ader kembara…naik turun bukit…but takdelah masuk paya apa ke…..tak macam zaman aku skolah dulu…kami kena kejut kul 4pagi..semayang subuh tepi jalan…panjat bukit curam, buat repelling and lepas tu masuk paya. Fuhhh….

So sebab tu aku tak risau sangat le this time sebab takde mencabar fizikal sangat…but since aku ni dah bertambah umur…yang masa skolah tu 16 tahun je..mmglah kuat and cergas!…So aku take good care of myself lah juga…

Balik tu hby and opi*e amik kat In*tenGah….sian op*ie demam…agak panas juga….rindu M*ma kot sebab takleh nak call…plus mmg weekend tu macam macam aktiviti yang dibuatnya. Cuaca sekarang ni plak panas and sometimes berjerebu…tu yang payah tu….baca paper, ader pembakaran terbuka kat ngan area aku nih…aduihhh tensenlah!.

So kami dah beli aircond…akan dtg pasang besok…harapnye lepas ni things not getting worstlah…So far hari ni opi*e dah okay sket….harapnye malam ni tak demam dah sebab aku kena gi opis dah…patutnye hari ni masuk opis…but kesian anak demam and aku pun nak rest…so aku bagitau boss nak cuti..

boss jgn marah aku yerk!…

opie baik demam yer

orang pasang aircond…cepatlah datang

hby…thanks muah!

Penat giler July 29, 2008

Saya sangat penat dengan segala kelas dan persediaan exam ini. lagi penat memikirkan tentang exam Khamis ni, dan satu habuk pun aku tak konfiden nak jawab. Tapi aku tak ada pilihan, kena juga jawab dan lulus dengan jayanya.

Penat sebab dan seminggu lebih, kuar rumah 6.30 pagi…which means, kul 5.30am aku dah bangun pagi,bersiap…azan Subuh je terus semayang and kuar rumah. Meredah jalan yang masih gelap tetapi kenderaan dah muka banyak. Sampai ke kampus…7.15am takpun 7.30 am, brakfast dan terus masuk kelas dari 8am hinggalah 5.30pm or kadang-kadang 6pm. Sekali lagi melalui FH..untuk balik ke rumah. Tak teruk sangat sebab pak poli*s mmg sungguh bagus menjaga lalu lintas dan traffic. Cayalah….so bolehlah sampai rumah dengan okay walaupun jam juga sekali sekala.

Itu bab transportation….sekarang tengah pening kepala tak tahu nak study macam mana , nak spot soalan apa..aku rasa so helpless…Arghhh tensen.Aku nak lulus..aku nak lulus…lepas exam terus kena gi B*TN plak…aduihhh…so maknanya malam ni aku kena kemas baju dah….but I’m so tired…so dead tired.Aku dok tido 2-3 jam je sehari…sejak jumaat,sabtu,ahad,isnin….erkhhh….tensen..

Ya Allah tolonglah aku…..aku nak buat semayang hajat bebanyak biar otak aku terang and instinct aku betul…ya allah tolonglah!

Thanks God it’s over July 21, 2008

I’ve done my public speaking today. I’m the 4th of all 67 course participants. Quite lack of knowledge and jury expectation. I’ve done my best and I hope the jury is really generous in giving the high marks. Compared to others, I came forward without any notes or cue cards…because I know I won’t be looking at it…(at all). I’m so used in using the slides, then when they said slides are not necessary so I go to empty handed. I have my intro, contents and able to conclude the speech. Only the nervousness is my weakness, Oh I hope people won’t noticed it much. **Cross Fingers**. Btw my title is ‘The L*aw O*f Att*raction’

My course overall went well, so far. We’re on 4th day actually, so too soon to tell. The first 2 days was group dynami*cs. The lecture only starts on Friday, (and the sleepy zone begins). I wish (want) to excel in this course and pass with flying colors. Still need to complete the individual assignments, group assignments as well as study for the exam. Insya Allah I’ll pass the exam.

The journey to P*J* was quite okay since 630am I’ve started my engine. It’s really early morning, but that’s the sacrifice that I have to make!. I normally reached the campus around 715 am -730am….and got ample time for breakfast and preparation and mangling with new friends!. It’s okay as long as i punch in before 8am. Punch out will be after 5pm, from looks like from today onwards…6pm will be the time (after the public speaking session).

People in my office were still excited for the opportunities meeting the royal highness. Hmmm I wish I can bee there too! But apakan daya!…stuck in this campus with the important course. The course mates so far are okay….67 and 29 are same grade like me. It’s time for ‘networking’!…Oh I shd take this opportunity to promote the seminar in August to all friends. Tomorrow will ask my secretary to print out and hand over the document to me.

Last weekend was quite tiring…..BIL and SIL #2 have a makan2 at their house (aqiq*h). It’s okay to come for makan2 and doa’…but looks like it’s more than that…MIL and FIL are busy with ‘menggulai’ and we the inlaws helping in lots of chores…saturday and sunday (no rest) for us. I wish they could understand life in KL , but unfortunately not…..If u want to it at kampung I don’t have any problem..but in KL..without any Public Holiday…oh they should pity us. No time for us to rest!…And actually they should just order and ask the caterer to prepare the food. Ntahlah….. as I told before, I need to prepare for my course and public speaking…so we left early, leaving the guest and the dirty dishes.Huhuhu…I’m the lazy menantu?…..

So I really thanks Allah the public speaking is over and the fest is over too. I can have lil bit peace of mind and focus on other tasks…(yang banyak bertimbun)