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Penat giler July 29, 2008

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Saya sangat penat dengan segala kelas dan persediaan exam ini. lagi penat memikirkan tentang exam Khamis ni, dan satu habuk pun aku tak konfiden nak jawab. Tapi aku tak ada pilihan, kena juga jawab dan lulus dengan jayanya.

Penat sebab dan seminggu lebih, kuar rumah 6.30 pagi…which means, kul 5.30am aku dah bangun pagi,bersiap…azan Subuh je terus semayang and kuar rumah. Meredah jalan yang masih gelap tetapi kenderaan dah muka banyak. Sampai ke kampus…7.15am takpun 7.30 am, brakfast dan terus masuk kelas dari 8am hinggalah 5.30pm or kadang-kadang 6pm. Sekali lagi melalui FH..untuk balik ke rumah. Tak teruk sangat sebab pak poli*s mmg sungguh bagus menjaga lalu lintas dan traffic. Cayalah….so bolehlah sampai rumah dengan okay walaupun jam juga sekali sekala.

Itu bab transportation….sekarang tengah pening kepala tak tahu nak study macam mana , nak spot soalan apa..aku rasa so helpless…Arghhh tensen.Aku nak lulus..aku nak lulus…lepas exam terus kena gi B*TN plak…aduihhh…so maknanya malam ni aku kena kemas baju dah….but I’m so tired…so dead tired.Aku dok tido 2-3 jam je sehari…sejak jumaat,sabtu,ahad,isnin….erkhhh….tensen..

Ya Allah tolonglah aku…..aku nak buat semayang hajat bebanyak biar otak aku terang and instinct aku betul…ya allah tolonglah!

 

Thanks God it’s over July 21, 2008

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I’ve done my public speaking today. I’m the 4th of all 67 course participants. Quite lack of knowledge and jury expectation. I’ve done my best and I hope the jury is really generous in giving the high marks. Compared to others, I came forward without any notes or cue cards…because I know I won’t be looking at it…(at all). I’m so used in using the slides, then when they said slides are not necessary so I go to empty handed. I have my intro, contents and able to conclude the speech. Only the nervousness is my weakness, Oh I hope people won’t noticed it much. **Cross Fingers**. Btw my title is ‘The L*aw O*f Att*raction’

My course overall went well, so far. We’re on 4th day actually, so too soon to tell. The first 2 days was group dynami*cs. The lecture only starts on Friday, (and the sleepy zone begins). I wish (want) to excel in this course and pass with flying colors. Still need to complete the individual assignments, group assignments as well as study for the exam. Insya Allah I’ll pass the exam.

The journey to P*J* was quite okay since 630am I’ve started my engine. It’s really early morning, but that’s the sacrifice that I have to make!. I normally reached the campus around 715 am -730am….and got ample time for breakfast and preparation and mangling with new friends!. It’s okay as long as i punch in before 8am. Punch out will be after 5pm, from looks like from today onwards…6pm will be the time (after the public speaking session).

People in my office were still excited for the opportunities meeting the royal highness. Hmmm I wish I can bee there too! But apakan daya!…stuck in this campus with the important course. The course mates so far are okay….67 and 29 are same grade like me. It’s time for ‘networking’!…Oh I shd take this opportunity to promote the seminar in August to all friends. Tomorrow will ask my secretary to print out and hand over the document to me.

Last weekend was quite tiring…..BIL and SIL #2 have a makan2 at their house (aqiq*h). It’s okay to come for makan2 and doa’…but looks like it’s more than that…MIL and FIL are busy with ‘menggulai’ and we the inlaws helping in lots of chores…saturday and sunday (no rest) for us. I wish they could understand life in KL , but unfortunately not…..If u want to it at kampung I don’t have any problem..but in KL..without any Public Holiday…oh they should pity us. No time for us to rest!…And actually they should just order and ask the caterer to prepare the food. Ntahlah….. as I told before, I need to prepare for my course and public speaking…so we left early, leaving the guest and the dirty dishes.Huhuhu…I’m the lazy menantu?…..

So I really thanks Allah the public speaking is over and the fest is over too. I can have lil bit peace of mind and focus on other tasks…(yang banyak bertimbun)

 

the intensive course July 18, 2008

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The course has started. So now I’ve been commuting from PH to PJ through FHway everyday. The class will start at 8am (we need to punch in before 8am) till 5pm (punch out). So in order to arrive safely , and without traffic hassle I started my engine at 6.30 am from home. Oh dear, it;s really early…but believe me 7am at FH, the traffics was heavy already. I don’t know what will be at 7.30am. 7 am just nice and I still can reached PJ at 7.30am….compared to normal timing (15 minutes). So now, everyday I woke up at 5.30 am. Class so far ended 5 pm or 5.30pm, so I quickly rushed out (to avoid traffics jam). And great enough so far I reached home at between 5.45pm till 6.15pm. Yuhuu!

Talked about the course, it’s really packed and full of assignments and tasks. We need to do 8 individual asg, 6 group asg, 1 public speaking and test (objective+essays)-not an open book test.Grrrrr. **Cross Finger**.I want to pass in excellent insya Allah

Since today is Friday, me and colleague went back to office for a while. It’s quite near to the course center actually. No memo or letters on my table yet (hahhaa I’ve been away for just 2 days only). Checked emails and friends said there are rearranging the position (ur location) again.Derhhh…lucky our room was intacted. But still feel uneasy and kind like ‘deerrrrrr’ because the shuffle is just because 1-demn-anak-mommy-guy-that-just-come-back-from-doing-msc-pastu-terasa-dah-pandai-sangat. Huh…well let him be.Perhaps the ‘aura’ of getting the ‘higher’ education still big and make his nostril ‘kembang’ lagik. Well beb! Sorry brother MSc is nothing now! Lots of peeps getting it and from my experience MSc is not difficult compared to first degree! And PhD too..(this is what my boss said because I haven’t do my PhD yet!). So because of this mangkuk hayun, some peeps have to reshuffle the working place, padahal we’re just do that 4 months ago!. Eiii…(I started to have some kind og bad perception about him). Huh …
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Family thingy!

SIL & BIL #3 just give birth to baby boy (at last) after they have 2 girls. They gonna have the aqiqah this sunday..which means I need to turn up on Saturday (helping….) and Sunday (helping and makan…..) Ohhh…well not to say I don’t want to go. (it’s an obligation maaaa). But just to tired when thinking about how busy I am…with asg and the time to study…and preparation for BeeTee-N.Hmmm but what can I do, have to force myself and help here and there la. Hmmm no comments on this…(but napalah cepat sangat u getting the 3rd one, rasa baru je aku gi tolong aqiqah anak no 2 hari tu) . Aduiihhh sakit jiwaku. Yup, the tense have risen because ppl keep asking when is our 2nd baby will arrive. Aiyooyoo…only if the baby can be produced at the fingertips dah lama dah aku buat tau!. :(

I better stop now, need to start doing the asg.

Tomorrow will be ‘jalan-jalan’ to KL…looking for white baju kurung actually, for my BeeTee N…warghhhh…and isyaallah…after passing all these things..and the security interview, I can be confirmed soon! Yuhuuu….

 

Ayat-a*yat Ci*nta July 11, 2008

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Ro*ssa – Ay*at Ay*at Ci*nta

Desir pasir di padang tandus
Segersang pemikiran hati
Terkisah ku di antara cinta yang rumit

Bila keyakinanku datang
Kasih bukan sekadar cinta
Pengorbanan cinta yang agung
Ku pertaruhkan

reff:
Maafkan bila ku tak sempurna
Cinta ini tak mungkin ku cegah
Ayat-ayat cinta bercerita
Cintaku padamu
Bila bahagia mulai menyentuh
Seakan ku bisa hidup lebih lama
Namun harus ku tinggalkan cinta
Ketika ku bersujud

Bila keyakinanku datang
Kasih bukan sekedar cinta
Pengorbanan cinta yang agung
Ku pertaruhkan

repeat reff

Ketika ku bersujud

 

Quick Updates July 9, 2008

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Today is my third day fasting. Tomorrow I’ll continue fasting and insya Allah until this Friday. I hope I can fasting more in Rejab this year.

Great news is, I lose some weight! Yuhuuu….I’m really excited about this and it makes my motivation higher….not just fasting for the sake of ‘pahala’ but also I manage to shed few kilos. Thanks Allah

But another things is, hby is still unwell. He catch cold and got runny nose. That’s make our B#2 plan not running so well. Hrmmm because I’m on ‘time’ now…but he’s not. I don’t wanna disturb him, since he really need a good rest. Also I need to keep myself healthy, not to catch cold too, if not no ‘healthy’ person can look after our son

I am now looking for prospectus company, to give some talk on Te*chnology Up*dates. In Inf*ormation T*echnology I mean. Been calling here and there, but no firm answer. Plus some of the companies got rejected by my boss because he not really keen with the topics that will be presented. Oh dear, that’s mean more work to be done. *Cross Fingers*. Hope I can catch some big fishes, so my boss will grin from eye to eye……

Here’s some activities that we have in mind:-

calendar

 

alhamdullilah… July 8, 2008

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Alhamdullilah to Allah, syukur for all the blessing. I’ve passed the Govt Law Examination that I’ve taken last March. Worth while all the pain due to 3 hours non stop writing. At first I thought I have slim chance to pass, because my handwriting was very bad and I don’t have any reference book on ‘Security Order’….

It’s a terrifying waiting and I’m so glad when the result stated ‘LULUS”.

Next week I’ll be going for another course and assessment, another though one!..Wish me luck. Oh dear, before that I need to settle all the tasks given!

 

July 7, 2008

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The B#2 programme get distracted….due to our family health. My son got fever…(we’re nursing 24×7 for almost 10 days), and now hby have runny nose and I started feeling uneasy with this sore throat. I wish we still have some time soon (with right mood and optimized body :) )

It’s quite a blur working day, today…after a week leave. When every one else are busy and lots of activities going on, suddenly you appear , back from the cave. Well that’s the feeling. So now I have lots of catch up to do. I need to complete 2 tasks immediately…

I’ll be going for 2 weeks course , next week and continue for a 5 days course soon. Have to start looking for materials for the course presentation,  and that’s mean I have to complete my task (workload) within this week.
Since hby have runny nose and ‘badly’ got fever- I’ll sleep my lil son for these few days, until he’s okay. But apparently though now is almost 2am, hby haven’t sleeping…hampesh! Then how to get back to normal?

 

Letto – Permintaan Hati July 6, 2008

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Terbuai aku hilang terjatuh aku dalam
Keindahan penantian
Terucap keraguan hati yang bimbang
Yang terhalang kepastian cinta

Aku hilang
Aku hilang

Tersabut kabut malam terbiasnya harapan
Yang tersimpan sejuta bertuan
Terasa kerinduan hati yang bimbang
Yang terhempas kepastian cinta

Dengarkanlah permintaan hati yang teraniaya sunyi
Dan berikanlah arti pada hidupku
Yang terhempas yang terlepas
Pelukanmu bersamamu dan tanpamu aku hilang selalu

Aku hilang
Aku hilang

Tersabut kabut malam terbiasnya harapan
Yang tersimpan sejuta bertuan
Terasa kerinduan hati yang bimbang
Yang terhempas kepastian cinta

Dengarkanlah permintaan hati yang teraniaya sunyi
Dan berikanlah arti pada hidupku
Yang terhempas yang terlepas
Pelukanmu bersamamu dan tanpamu aku hilang selalu
Bersamamu dan tanpamu aku hilang selalu

Dengarkanlah permintaan hati yang teraniaya sunyi
Dan berikanlah arti pada hidupku
Yang terhempas yang terlepas
Pelukanmu bersamamu dan tanpamu aku hilang selalu
Bersamamu dan tanpamu aku hilang selalu

 

Puasa Rejab July 4, 2008

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… saya ambil dari blog adiwish, terima kasih kerana berkongsi.

Peringatan untuk saya juga.

Untuk pengetahuan semua pada 4 Julai 2008 (Jumaat) kita memasuki bulan Rejab. Bulan Rejab adalah bulan Allah swt. Let’s overview ada apa di sebalik bulan Rejab itu. Diriwayatkan bahwa Rasulullah saw telah bersabda, “Ketahuilah bahwa bulan Rejab itu adalah bulan ALLAH swt, maka:”

Barang siapa yang berpuasa 1 hari dalam bulan ini dengan ikhlas, maka pasti ia mendapat keredhaan yang besar dari ALLAH swt

Dan barang siapa berpuasa pada tanggal 27 Rejab 1429h/Isra Mi’raj (Rabu, 30 Julai 2008) akan mendapat pahala seperti 5 tahun berpuasa

Barang siapa yang berpuasa 2 hari di bulan Rejab akan mendapat kemuliaan di sisi ALLAH swt

Barang siapa yang berpuasa 3 hari yaitu pada tanggal 1, 2, dan 3 Rejab (4, 5, 6 Julai 2008) maka ALLAH swt akan memberikan pahala seperti 900 tahun berpuasa dan menyelamatkannya dari bahaya dunia dan seksa akhirat

Barang siapa berpuasa 5 hari dalam bulan ini, insyaallah permintaannya akan dimakbulkan Allah swt..InsyaAllah

Barang siapa berpuasa 7 hari dalam bulan ini, maka ditutupkan 7 pintu neraka Jahanam dan barang siapa berpuasa delapan hari maka akan
dibukakan 8 pintu syurga

Barang siapa berpuasa 15 hari dalam bulan ini, maka ALLAH swt akan mengampuni dosa-dosanya yang telah lalu dan menggantikan kesemua kejahatannya dengan kebaikan, dan barang siapa yang menambah (hari-hari puasa) maka ALLAH swt akan menambahkan pahalanya.”

Sabda Rasulullah saw lagi :”Pada malam Mi’raj, saya melihat sebuah sungai yang airnya lebih manis dari madu, lebih sejuk dari air batu dan
lebih harum dari minyak wangi, lalu saya bertanya pada Jibril as “Wahai Jibril untuk siapakah sungai ini?”

Maka berkata Jibrilb as “Ya Muhammad sungai ini adalah untuk orang yang membaca selawat untuk engkau dibulan Rejab ini.”

Dalam sebuah riwayat Tsauban bercerita :”Ketika kami berjalan bersama-sama Rasulullah saw ke sebuah kubur, lalu Rasulullah saw
berhenti dan beliau menangis dengan amat sedih, kemudian beliau berdoa kepada ALLAH swt. Lalu saya bertanya kepada beliau “Ya Rasulullah, mengapakah engkau menangis?” Lalu beliau bersabda “Wahai Tsauban, mereka itu sedang diseksa dalam kuburnya dan saya berdoa kepada ALLAH swt, lalu ALLAH swt meringankan atas mereka.”

Sabda beliau lagi “Wahai Tsauban, kalaulah sekiranya mereka ini mahu berpuasa satu hari dan beribadah satu malam saja di bulan Rejab nescaya mereka tidak akan disiksa di dalam kubur.” Tsauban bertanya “Ya Rasulullah, apakah hanya berpuasa satu hari dan beribadah satu malam dalam bulan Rejab sudah dapat mengelakkan dari seksa kubur?”

Sabda beliau “Wahai Tsauban, demi ALLAH Zat yang telah mengutus saya sebagai nabi, tiada seorang muslim lelaki dan perempuan yang berpuas asatu hari dan mengerjakan solat malam sekali dalam bulan Rejab dengan niat karena ALLAH swt, kecuali ALLAH swt mencatatkan baginya seperti berpuasa satu tahun dan mengerjakan solat malam satu tahun.”